In a few winks, I'll be officially part of the workforce again...huraaaay!! :) I consider it a blessing that despite choosing to be on a long hiatus (a year to be exact), I am still able to go back to the university doing what I love. And perhaps new perspectives on living, teaching and mothering are in order.
I've been mulling over the course designs, schedules and activities, I'm sure this would be fun!
A big HOWEVER for me is having to leave Z to the help. We've done it before, yes, but not in a very structured and frequent fashion. I know I shouldn't worry but sometimes I just can't help it. Would she cry her eyeballs out if I'm not back in the next couple of hours? Would she refuse my expressed milk? Would she even sleep? Would she be making 'tampo' when I return? Could we make it through the term?
So as much as I want this post to be helpful to moms who are going back to work, I think this one is really for me, to get everything off my mind and have the assurance that everything's gonna be alright :)
1. I love working! I believe it is a healthy expression of ourselves - passions, advocacies, talents, flaws and gifts. While I'm a person who can easily go on overdrive, I choose to control myself. Hence I choose to teach part-time so that as much as I can avail of that self-expression, I can still be very available for my family.
2. I love mothering and breastfeeding! And Z still does too! This even played a big factor in choosing my schedule at school. There must be a nursing session before I leave home, a couple pump session at work and immediate latching when I get back home. If other moms are able to make it work, I feel all the more empowered that our nursing tandem can do it too!
So more fluids for me, signing up to use the lactation room and making sure my pump parts are ready. I even bought extra parts so I wouldn't have to bother with washing and sterilizing them at work.
3. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13)
There are a lot more I could worry about but what's the use? I choose to trust Jesus that this anointing is from Him and as long as I do my best (especially with preparations), I can entrust Him to do the rest.
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