"Duhh?!?!?!" Hahaha..I know exactly what you're thinking LOL! :)
I've been in this am-I-preggo-or-not limbo for close to 2 weeks and it's really driving me crazy! Yaaahh!! You know that crucial moment when it's too early to tell from a home pregnancy test (hpt) or beta serum hcg determination (blood test) whether you are or aren't and yup - I'm in THAT zone!
Been searching all over the net too for definitive signs but they all come with disclaimers..why o why haha. What's a "feeling preggers" mom to do? Since Daddy A hit the sack, then I'll continue my rambling here :)
What symptoms am I having?
Number one on my list is just a weird feeling in the lower abdomen. Not the fluttery kind. Definitely no kicks in there yet. It's just weird in the sense that sometimes it feels like there is and at the same time there isn't anything in there. No bloating though!
Second would be a pinching feeling when I stand for long periods. Like a very small but heavy pinch that won't go away. I'm actually alarmed by this because it's somehow similar to the subchorionic hemorrhage a.k.a. "internal bleeding" (SCH) when I had my 2nd. This intensified when we travelled to Pampanga for work.
Another would be some *TMI here* sort of spotting. By all accounts, it definitely is off-sched to have a very early spotting, but there you go! At this point I already got in touch with my OB, Dr. Menefrida Reyes. I know from experience that if ever, it still is too early to see anything from a trans-V ultrasound so she recommended for me to get a serum beta hcg determination..it's a blood test that is more sensitive than an HPT. I got it from Hi-Precision for PHP 760.00. I asked from Metro Hospital and they quoted PHP 1,200 for the hcg test. --> The test came out negative and I'm supposed to do a repeat after a week.
Of course, there are all sorts of miscellaneous symptoms: nausea on the 3rd day, a surprising craving for pancit (I'm especially drawn to North Park's Lo Mien now), Spiderman super sense of smell. The last one is funny because when we were in San Fernando, I smelled the tenant's cooking as if they were doing it right in front of me! So weird!!
Finally, a girl name just suddenly came to mind. I told Daddy A about it and per usual, he said I may be too imaginative haha.
How do I feel about this?
These past 2 weeks have been going on so sloooowww.. Like c'mon, can't I take the next pregnancy test already? It's so tiring to think and think hahaha. But if ever we really are pregnant, I think we've got a lot on our plate.
It's gonna change so much of the family dynamics that we have now. I don't know yet how to deal as I came from a 2-child household...
But then again, are these early symptoms (as I call them) mother's instinct being our potential 3rd pregnancy? If so, it's so awesome to know you're pregnant before any scientific test says that you are. Right??
And if not...well, I guess I can humor myself and Daddy A with all my so-called symptoms and imagination in overdrive hahaha :)
So...
This is really just an over-all weird feeling or awareness that I hope we can confirm soon. Even then, I'm already praying for a safe baby, mommy, pregnancy, childbirth and our whole family. Everyday I feel it's a struggle to raise 2 kids, more will be a challenge but I know we can get through this with God's help.
Am I just thinking these things up? Maybe, maybe not?...Who knows?!?!?!
Mommies, share naman if you also felt something like this :)
P.S. It's my birthday next Monday...woohoo!!! Cheers to 35!!! :)
P.P.S. I'm sooo nervous to his Publish but here we go!!
