Zara's OOTD - Noir et Blanc

The things mommy does while baby is latched on! :) Thank you Tita Vien and Tito Arvin for my socks and mittens combo!

Zara's First Month!

I distinctly remember telling my husband during our first week at home with our newborn, "Daddy, I don't think I could go on with this! Hindi ko na ata kaya.." Of course, referring to most difficulties that first-time parents must go through: latching issues (can you say 'ow!!!'), a newborn who seemed to sleep thru the whole day (while we worry no end about hypoglycemia), a twitching c-section scar, lochia (na nakakaloka!), baby's piercing cries (wailing and lupasay-mode na iyak) from even just a drop of pee, fear of being fed black chicken (I don't know why, I just have a strong aversion to this ge-lai food haha), a general lack of sleep and the realization that our lives have really taken a different turn!

On our second day, I actually (desperately!) asked my mom and dad to come home already and just be here with me. Ganuong level na! It was almost an hour of crying over Viber and even my Auntie Nene had to comfort me through this. Never mind that the househelp and even my mother-in-law heard my sobs from the other room. They said being a mom would be instinctual and would come naturally, certainly wasn't the case for me. We definitely are going through a looong learning curve - learning by doing, practicing and just marching forward.

Our darling daughter - Zara Mireille Lim